Is that alright?

9 Crimes - Damien Rice

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I'd do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
With you?

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I'd do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you
It's the wrong time
She's pulling me through
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If you dont shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
If I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright?
If I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If you don't shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
If I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?

No...

Let us mourn for those who have passsed away,
for those who have left us earlier than we expected,
for those we weren't ready to say good-bye,
for those who should be with us,
for those who we owe tears,
and for those who still exist at this moment
who feel the pain of losing the beloved
who feel remorseful
who bear the sorrow at night
who need a space to cry...

世上只有媽媽好

人總是生病了，才會體認到家人陪伴的重要

開完刀的當天
腫得像豬頭得我還跑去逛街買東西，一直受到異樣的眼光
連平常都不講話的店員都跑來問我事情
害我用大舌頭的方式支支吾吾的講話
她整個嚇到
我把我的可憐遭遇跟寶貝老媽哭訴
她竟然笑到差點掉到沙發下
頓時覺得雪上加霜
她還開心地出門去唱歌
讓我覺得自己活像個無法進食的獨居老人(因為後方牙齒被拔掉，牙齦被開了個大洞)
而她才是那個青春洋溢出門溜搭的女兒

但是，媽媽還是媽媽

到了晚上，媽媽拎著大包小包回來
她買了兩碗粥，還幫我吹涼並把料挑掉
知道我喜歡吃米糕，特別跑去買爛的像麻糬的米糕
冰箱也塞滿了牛奶和一堆超軟蛋糕
也煮了把馬鈴薯泥和濃湯
一聽到我吃膩了粥
馬上買了一包粿
每天早上都幫我打木瓜牛奶
聽到我想喝關東煮的湯
馬上去買料燉一鍋
她現在什麼都幫我煮到很軟，讓我可以不用咀嚼就吞食
別人送了兩盒月餅，
不愛吃甜食的媽媽還特別試吃每一種，再把最軟的拿給我吃

反倒是自己等到要上班了才隨便吃一吃

如果等到有一天媽媽老了，自己會有同樣的耐心和時間來照顧她嗎?

在我小的時候，媽媽就是這樣呵護我長大
長大後生病了，媽媽從來不曾缺席，依舊用她那溫柔的雙手照顧我
哪一天她需要我的時候，
我告誡著自己，
決不可以忘記她一直以來對我的無怨無悔
我一定也要拋下身旁的一切
細心的照顧她，陪伴她
而這絕對不及她對我的一半

這是我欠妳的，
我願意在往後無數個輩子報恩。

Denny and Izzie, you ought to be together forever.

最近開始迷上Grey's Anatomy 實習醫生
一開始是因為男主角，但是發現他根本戲份不重，而且是花心小蘿蔔
我覺得我常看類似的影集
看似有趣但看完後會更沉重想哭的片子
所以看電影對我來說，根本不釋放鬆或減輕壓力
多半都是在哭
昨天出門沒看到，不知道Denny的手術進行得怎樣
今天再次看到他帥氣的臉龐後，心情雀躍不已
女生啊，還是最愛看求婚的橋段了
但是，結局卻唯美地令人心碎。
We can't escape the moment of being heartbroken.
若知道結局是如此，你也會作同樣的決定嗎?
I don't know. I wish we wouldn't have to face the moment.

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

「我有壞消息要跟你說:你看到的黑點是囊腫，原因不明，但確定是良性的。」
難道，醫生都沒有別的台詞嗎?
讓我看完X光片後，給我一張轉診單。
之後，我決定自己一個人去面對現實

媽媽聽到之後，一整天心情都不好。
但她自己卻一直對我說:「只是個小手術，沒有你想像得這麼嚴重。」
其實，我沒有把它想得很嚴重，甚至認為是可以拖的，因為我根本不會痛。
我想，媽媽多少有點責怪自己，因為她前陣子才把一些錢給別人，剛好是我手術的花費金額。
請不要責怪自己，因為這不是任何人的責任。
錢也只是小事

我想要自己一個人去醫院，因為我知道媽媽對醫院的感覺。
我在狹小的走道裡等候了足足4個多小時
不斷的被帶去作同樣的診斷
出現同樣的結果
對我說同樣的話
我一直走到樓下看外面景色，
走到窗邊透透氣
走到沒充滿病人的地方呼吸
因為我討厭那裡等待的氣氛
就算是病人，還是會有不耐煩的時候。

等了一整天，
無功而返
結果還是得等明天早上手術
白白浪費一整天在等待

老實說，我想要早點結束，
不想要再延長等待的時間
雖然我不太敢想過程會是怎樣，
但是還是希望快點結束。

我想我會過得很好
可能會腫個幾天
可能會沒辦法吃東西
可能會痛一陣子
I can promise you that everything will be alright.
讓我最討厭的是
還是得家教
還是得去處理一堆事
希望到時候還可以順利說話，順利吃喝，順利看起來美美的。

這個時候，大概可以看出身旁的人關心自己的程度。
媽媽: 滿分
要是沒有她，我可能會無聊到昏在那裡，而且可能會在醫院爆哭。
林姓友人: 不及格
打電話找不到他人，回電後也沒誠意，完全沒有安慰人的意思。
亞X電信&他們家手機: 零分
就是你害我漏接三通重要電話，Scheisse!

這次手術，我只有幾個希望:
手術後可以好好吃東西
申請保險理賠成功
家教照教錢照賺
Wish me super big luck and may God bless me!