冬天到了，感性作祟

有時候
我喜歡一個人去美術館
靜靜的欣賞畫作或藝術創作
讓自己的心理沉澱
整理思緒
看著畫
回想當時畫家創作的心境
同時慢慢地翻閱自己的回憶
總覺得需要這種獨處的時光
也需要心靈被釋放的時光
或者記下當時的感觸
但願能默默地撫慰傷痛

在哥本哈根的最後一天
我選擇自己一個人去美術館度過
走了好久好久
找到一家展出當代藝術的展館
一走進去
我眼眶就紅了

是啊
我看見我曾經夢想求學的地方
那是我差一點就要踏上的土地
我才發現
原來夢想一直隱藏在血液裡
依然沸騰著
還有那部份感性的我
依然竄動著
原來我一直沒有忘懷

我喜歡Paulo Coelho在By the River Pietra裡寫的這段:

"If we reject it,
we die of hunger,
because we lack the courage to stretch out a hand and pluck the fruit from the branches of the tree of life.
We have to take love where we find it,
even if that means hours, days, weeks of disappointment and sadness.

The moment we begin to seek love, love begins to seek us.
And to save us."

書裡的主角因為是在尋找love
但是我想可以換成我們覺得人生最重要的東西
但是如果把love替換成dream
就是我的感受吧

「如果人生沒有夢想，就會活活餓死，因為我們沒有勇氣伸出手摘下生命之樹的果子。必須要找到夢想，即使非得經過無數次的失望和傷痛。

尋找夢想的那一刻開始，夢想也開始在尋找我，
同時也拯救了我。」

今天看到幾個月前去看幾米星空展覽的票根寫的文字，心裡就有很深的感觸

「那時候，未來遙遠而沒有形狀，夢想還不知道該叫什麼名字。
我常常一個人，走很長的路，在起風的時候覺得自己像一片落葉。
仰望星空，我想知道:有人正從世界的某個地方朝我走來嗎?
像光那樣，從一顆星到達另外一顆星。

後來，你出現了。又離開了。
我們等候著青春，卻錯過了彼此。」

如果你問我為什麼這麼喜歡去看展覽或去美術館
我想
一部份是因為想要尋找這種感動吧
我喜歡閱讀
因為我喜歡文字觸動我心的感覺
也好像時光穿梭
過去的自己藉由感動洞悉了未來的自己
現在的自己撫慰著過去的自己同時望著未來的自己微笑
因為未來的自己對現在的自己招手著

唉
想了好多喔
一定又是冬天到了
感性作祟

By the River Piedra

I always like the quotes from Paulo Coelho's books.
Sometimes I feel like they communicate with me, like having deep conversation with my heart.
Sometimes they give me courage.
Sometimes they clear my doubts.
Sometimes they reveal my true feelings.
Sometimes they heal, but it still hurts.
Sometimes I feel better.
Sometimes I feel down.
Sometimes, sometimes,
I am not always like this.

It's a healing process.
Give me some time.


By the River Piedra I sat down and wept. There is a legend that everything that falls into the waters of this river—leaves, insects, the feathers of birds—is transformed into the rocks that make the riverbed. If only I could tear out my heart and hurl it into the current, then my pain and longing would be over, and I could finally forget.

By the River Piedra I sat down and wept. The winter air chills the tears on my cheeks, and my tears fall into the cold waters that course past me. Somewhere, this river joins another, then another, until—far from my heart and sight—all of them merge with the sea.



Photos taken in Copenhagen, Denmark, in December 2009.

First Day in UNFCCC COP15

Just arrived Denmark today! As soon as we arrived Copenhagen, we set off to UNFCCC COP15 for registration! Kaohsiung City will have a presentation on this Thursday night. If you can come, please be our guests. Otherwise, give us your best wishes. : )



白天我們在丹麥哥本哈根的會場Bella Center開會，晚上就坐火車回到瑞典馬爾摩的飯店休息。
就這樣一天往返兩個國家。
我帶著去年波蘭COP14送的帽子，還有充滿老媽愛心的Gore-Tex外套，才得以在瑞典的冬天存活。